I had this weird dream ....it felt like watching a movie in the beginning  and somewhere inbetween I became part of the movie ...and nearing the end it felt like the movie became reality .  Here's how the movie started.

I was vacationing in Thailand like usual riding my motorcycle around the countryside one day and going to the city by car the other day when all of a sudden rumours about my boyfriend cheating on me started to spread around.  My boyfriend was oversees on business and was expected back in Thailand a week from now....(now is whenever, it's a dream I don't know the exact date).  I was getting excited and anxious at the same time by this news.

After he arrived in BKK he phoned to meet me in Korat.  I went to Korat and picked up some strange vibes from him.  I was happy to see him but in the back of my mind something felt out of hand.  We spend the night together for the first time in a long time (non-sexual)....

There's NO sex in any of my nightmares ....aherm...do not even think about thinking if my other dreams contain sex....

The following day I met up with a male friend of mine who told me he followed his girlfriend to Korat.  He was pouring his heart out about his fear of his girlfriend cheating on him.  His girlfriend is pregnant and he's afraid the TWINS are not his.  Later we both found out his girlfriend followed ME to Korat because she wanted to meet up with my boyfriend.

My boyfriend and she used to DATE but when he started a relationship with me he promissed not to have any contact or relationship with her unless it's platonic.  She was still in love with him at that time.

There's more but I'll skip to the end .

The four of us were together and I had just found out my male friend's girlfriend went to see the doctor just before following me to Korat.  I knew something was ABSOLUTELY wrong about this situation when she all of a sudden announced being IMPREGNATED by my boyfriend...and her boyfriend knew and wanted me to hear it from him instead of from his girlfriend.  My world came tumbleing down.  I felt betraid.  Even then I wanted to give my boyfriend the benifit of the doubt but he just stood there and didn't even try to object or acknowledge the information just given.  That's what eventually convinced me she was telling the truth.  Tears started to pour out of me like a monsoon.  What made it even worse the girl's doctor followed her to give her news about the ECHO they took a day earlier she wasn't expecting twins but TRIPLETS....

Sounds like a bad comedy huh ?

But by then I couldn't stop my body from going into overdrive.  I yelled at my boyfriend...and screemed all this time WHY WHY WHY...why would you do this to me ?  What have I done to you for you to deceive me this way ?  Why ...I loved you so much ...(and all this time I was thinking I still love him....I have to let go...I have to...but I love him...I love him so much...why...)

I was seeing all these scary images...

(even a "SCREAM" movie poster flashed by ...silly na ?)

...he was walking away during my break-down and I was following him (in slowmotion...weird)...while yelling at him.  His image became to deform...he was Edward Norton

(in American History X)...and slowly morphed into Chester Bennington

(Linkin' Park, the vocalist)...and after that someone unknown...

I felt the pain...and adrenaline rushing through my body...still repeating the things I was yelling at him...

And I woke up .

WHAAAAAAAAAAAT?  I got out of bed tired .  It must have subconciously been on my mind for me to dream about my boyfriend's deceit.  Herrrrr.....

After taking a shower I tried to forget about it .  But it's weird na...I didn't think about it the entire day but somehow I can still write down exactely how I dreamt it . ...must have made quite an impact on my memory .

Anywho I went to visit my old work placement company.  It was nice to catch up ...55+ .  The guy I talked to, his name is "Hay", told me they were looking for a second secretary for the front desk because one had resigned.  WOW ...good news ....for me.  I am going to call the company the following monday ! 

After my short visit I went into town to meet up with my mother and FINALLY bought some new shoes and a teenie weenie little wallet.  It was just TOO cute not to buy (the last one in the shop too...55+ ).  My mom wanted to go to the toko to buy some fresh herbs and canned Thai vegetables...55+.  I also bought some seaweed to make sushi later at home....55+ .

I'll leave you with some pics .

Sushi

        I just had to write this...because otherwise it wouldn't be a diary .  Weird overflow of topics mai la?  I am weird ...but I'm used to it .

        My second practical aerobics class..yeey...soo excited ...I wonder how long I'm gonna last excercising from 1 pm to 5 pm  pls give me some stamina....55+ .

        Miss a lot of people....

        Miss you....

        More the next date....huggy &  kiss....